cold

the past week has been terribly cold. very cold. extremely cold to me. my fingers were constantly cold, my toes freezing and my muscles ache painfully. i miss tropical weathers, warm singapore weathers.

however, the past weeks or so, i've also been in an artistic mood. i want to create music, i want to put words into a story, i want to draw. but, sadly, my busy work weeks have begun. i would be gone almost all day for work more often the next three weeks. on one hand, yay, bigger paycheck. on the other, yay, stress.

it is good news that those in my year have finished polytechnic. but it is sad that i am not part of that group. i feel sad that i am not there, celebrating with them and holding a diploma in my hands, to show my achievement. but yet, a smaller, quieter, firmer part of me is glad that i am out of singapore. because, by coming here, i have been forced to mature and grow so much, in a way that singapore would never have been able to.

i miss the good times. but i never want to look back for fear of regrets. but i am happy and proud of you lot who stuck in there in poly. my only question to you gals now is, what now?