my promise

i am bad at commitment, i admit. this would be my third? fourth? attempt at an online journal/blog but this will be my last, i promise.

i know i've been gone, distant. life goes on. times change. eventually, my feelings would change too. however, the few and treasured bonds i created will never disappear, even if i appear to be gone. i admit, i was at fault. i should have done more to stay in touch. but it is difficult and painful. to talk, to chat and knowing that i would not be in your presence. we talk of promises of together soon. we talk of surety of meeting again, soon. but in the meantime, we would suffer each other's absence.

i am a runner. i run, i hide and i flee from whatever hurts me, whatever pains me. however, you chased me. and because of that, i am going to take a stand now. it would be tough but that would be selfish of me. and when it comes to you guys, i really want to be selfless.

so, this blog will be my promise to you. verisa, huitze, melody and everyone else who is waiting to dine with me; everyone who is waiting for the day when we can be together again. i will promise to do my best in communicating with you guys. i will promise to do my best to reminding you guys that i'm still here.

i do love you all. i'm always saying this but it is the only thing i know for sure; believe me, i'm always here.